i am a loser

This is how pathetic I am.
There is this girl on my myspace page that I try talking to all the time and sometimes she will send me a message and she will act like she likes me but nothing happens and then she doesn't talk to me again for like 2 weeks.
So I keep trying and trying for some reason, don't ask me why okay because I'm lonely and pathetic. Anyways I ask her to hang out like I always do and she asks me if I want to go to Toledo to get a dog with her and I'm like okay if that what it takes to hang out sure I'll do it. I mean shes gonna be in the car with me for like 6 hours if that happens we have to get to know each other a lot better that way and she will fall for me. Yeah right.
So then it gets down to me coming over and shes like damn my mom needs me to pay my car bill or shes taking it away can I borrow the 100 dollars for the dog and I'll give u a check or whatever but you have to wait until I get paid again to cash it. So, I'm like okay sure. I know I'm probably being used, but I just really want to see what could come out of this.
I drive to her house and she tells me I have to wait for her roommate to leave so I go to Mcdonald's and eat and wait for like a half hour then I drive to her apartment even though I still hav to wait. Shes like I can't come up because her roommate will freak out so I wait in the parking lot for an hour in this apartment complex.

Then shes send me a txt and shes like Trista her roommate won't stop bugging her and that she has to go someplace with her really quick but she'll be back. Again I repeat really quick they just have to go to AT&T.
I see her roommate come out and go get her car. She is wearing really small shorts and I notice her legs. I'm really annoyed at this point so I txt the girl and I'm like your friend has really nice legs. She txts me Fuck you. She just got back from Florida. I'm like I was just joking, and when you came out all I could see was your hair it's like you were hiding from me but I liked it. So, her roommate pulls up in between the apartments and she gets in the car.
Another two hours pass and I'm still waiting in the parking lot. Yes two hours and I'm still waiting. I text her and I'm like seriously when are you coming back.

And she finally sends me a txt that says the only way her friend is taking her back home is if take them out to eat so I'm like ok whatever.
So they make me drive to Eastwood mall as if I wasn't nervous and played enough especially since I hate driving let alone in an area I haven't been too since I was like ten.
We eat at Buffalo Wild Wings. I had a Mohito, but then cut myself off because I was driving and didn't know the area. I left my carry out box there. Which was pretty much my whole meal because I was too nervous too eat. It's really hard for me to talk around two girls especially since they are both pretty hot and so I dunno I just look dumb and pathetic and I drive them home. I really had to use the restroom and asked if I could come in but the roommate just wanted to rest and the other girl said she had to return a shirt to her sister or something. So I couldn't even come in, because they both had stuff to do apparently.
And so I drove home.
Oh but I left out another good part. I'm in the front of the parking lot and they are like can you pull out around back and pull in between like Trista did because we don't like to walk out there.
Basically they couldn't even walk 15 ft to get in the car I had to go out of my way and do all that stuff like go in between the apartments right by the door and if that wasn't enough they txted me and asked me to move up another 5 ft. When they are still inside the apartment she txts me again and says Trista wants me to sit in the backseat with her is that ok?

So its like I'm some damn taxi driver or chauffeur. At least I put my foot down on this one and said no you have to sit up front or I'm leaving. Anyways now she wants me to lend her 300 dollars for a pit bull that is only 20 minutes or so from her house instead of the one in Toledo. As of right now she isn't talking to me though. Maybe she found someone else to use and give her the money.

So about 3 and a half hours of my Saturday was spent waiting and the other hours of it were spent being used more than I don't even know what.

I came up with a perfect cover story though if anyone asked me what I was doing waiting in the car so long like a freaking weirdo. I was gonna say I was waiting for someone to walk out so I could serve them some divorce papers and not to mess with me because I was on the clock.

Why do I have to be such a pushover sometimes. Also, why do I have to be such an introvert.

Kids eating chocolate is funny. They always get it all over their face especially since they hold it in their hands too long and it melts.


I need new night shoes or going out shoes.