push it to the limit

"Don't take the free ride in your own life" Great line from a Nickelback song. All the lyrics are super tight and powerful. I love the opening too reminds me of you Jay.



"My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift
And not a given right

Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by"


Damn this is climbing the charts of my favorite songs right now. I'm going to vote it to top ten inspirational songs of 2009 and of all TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. Okay so I might have gotten a little carried away with the of all time part.

I don't mind if you come to work with the common cold. I don't even care if you come in with the flu, but please don't come in with untreated pink eye. I don't want that. UGH!!!!!!!!

No, Stef ugh is not my favorite word. Top ten maybe. Shut the fuck up is my favorite saying though. Joking. I don't know what a damn comma is, so don't tell me I don't ever use it where I'm suppose to. I don't care if supposed to has a d at the end. I say suppose. Suppose thisssssssssssss. Don't edit my work from behind my shoulder.

Virant White Silk is good wine it was gone before I knew it.

I forgot how pleasurable reading is when you have no life, I seriously get carried away.

You're welcome for the apple juice. I hope it made your day semi-better. And the gum.

I'm glad you got to vent, whenever, wherever.

Cherries for breakfast.


Random lyrics to a song I'm working on

Screaming tears on the inside
Telling me it's time to get off this ride (emotional ride?)

I'd like to think we're close
most (need a line)
You don't even have to ask
I'm up to the task
mask (possible word)

She's my on again off again best girl friend
She's going through a tough time with the man in her life
From fighting to this?
What's that really say?
Have things really changed?
Or just rearranged
if you turn me into the bad guy
i'll never even question why
your motive to feel better
as your eyes become wetter

its a role that i'm use to
i'll never be the hero
cast me as the villain
because i'm more than willing
to take that fall
when your backs against the wall
and you don't know what to do or who to turn to
i'll always remain true through and through

if you take a leap of faith
and don't shove it in my face
you don't even have to think twice
you dont even have to say it nice
it doesn't matter that you were as cold as ice
it doesn't matter that you never took my advice
it's worth more than the toss of the dice
the chance that you'll finally see
is worth more to me
than the sacrifice whatever price


so if your counting on a prayer
look no further than the air
you're breathing in despair
'cuz i'll be there i swear

always the escape goat
whatever gives you hope
something to cling onto
when all else fails you

go ahead and beat me down some more
i'm already sick tired and sore

what would i give to once again roam those halls
and write your name on the stalls

I got my life and you got yours
Meet in the middle and aim for the stars
My heart is tender and you're just so rare
Together we'd make quite the pair
If we quit now we'll never know
So lets risk it all and give it a go

End of random lyrics by me

"Going to the restroom I hope is a private matter, but it's not personal we all do it."

This is in reference to me coming in to work after clocking in and using the restroom thus actually starting work at 7:32. Prior to this (like at least a month ago) my boss said (in a memo) all personal stuff needs to be done before clocking in. This was because people were walking around all over the place doing who knows what most of which was non work related and then actually spending time with the kids like 20 minutes later then they were suppose to.

Anyways someone made a joke to me about it and that's what I wanted to reply with "Going to the restroom I hope is a private matter, but it's not personal we all do it." But in person I usually only have the balls to say stuff in my head or days later.


I pushed someone away on purpose. You know that saying I'd rather be hated for who i am then loved for I'm not. Well in a way I'm selfish because sometimes I would rather piss someone off by pretending to be something I'm not then them being indifferent to who I am where I don't even matter. So, I just said fuck it and pushed someone away because they didn't want to be in my life all that much anyways.

Probably pissed some people off at the book club with my opinions mostly my sister. I can't help it if you get me started I speak my mind.

My meal was really good. Grilled chicken spinach salad and french fries. There was a lot of chicken in it which was great but surprising. It also came with an egg and crackers. I topped it all off with a delicious and my personal favorite pie: lemon meringue.

Next book is Goodbye, Mr. Chips about a teacher or something. There is a movie, but that's cheating. April 29th, a Weds at Jefferson Diner if you're interested. I believe the author is Michael Hilton no relation to Paris.


When I was 18 I had the woman of my dreams all figured out. She was etched into my mind. I talked to her last night for the first time in years for about 30 minutes. The conversation went great but I still have no chance with her. A girl like that will always have a boyfriend or a special someone in her life waiting in line. It was good talking to her though. She's something else. What a beauty inside and out.


"Oh I combed my hair today." Good for you lady. Who fucking cares. You should comb or do something to your hair at least everyday. "I don't care how I look at work." If you didn't you wouldn't talk about it so much. You do it to make yourself feel better about being lazy.

I know a lot of people don't care about what they look like at work, some do because it's all about presentation and they take pride in it and it's professional, but either way you slice it you don't go around talking about it either way. People tell you that you look good. You don't go around shouting it hey look at me I look good.

I need to download Chopin's nocturnes.

My reservations fro the YPAC thing on Thursday got sent to the wrong address. Bunch of idiots. Thursday night at the GaReat Complex in Geneva wear sports attire.

I polished off my vodka and tonic this morning. Last night I finished a full one and made another. That is when the sleeping pills actually kicked in and I managed to resit the urge to fight the sleep for a change. Therefore, I woke up with 3/4's of my drink left and I didn't want to waste it so I downed it. Don't judge me.

Ugh I know I've mentioned this before, but it keeps happening. I hate people who think they know everything. Just shut the hell up already. No one cares.

I'm so tired of listening to that dumb bitch Asa Cox in the morning over and over doing the same buy a home from me spiel. I want to hear music or at least the news not her everyday.

Thoughts while driving: Amazing purple horizon this morning. I love them. Now it's turning a little pinkish, but it was like three shades of purple at one point. You really should have seen it. If not you missed out...sucker.

I want a plum now thanks a lot.