Last Friday. I want to stay angry, so I actually do something about it! Damned if I do, damned if I don’t. Is how I feel about the situation. Ugh.
I saw a car surrounded by 6 or 7 police cars with their light. Also, I saw what looked to be a 12 year old black boy pulled over by a cop. I swear there is no way he was 16.
What a major disappointment it was to not get to go on that field trip.
This scar on my bicep that was barely noticeable before, keeps getting bigger.
You’re an itch I didn’t scratch
I never struck the match
You didn’t let the feelings hatch
You were always just out of reach
Like a lost ship searching for the beach
Like a little kid trying to pick a peach
My will power had nothing to do with it
You and I just didn’t seem to fit
Just let it disappear, fade away
I’ll forget about you some day
In time I won’t feel it anymore
Eventually I won’t be so sore
I won’t hold you as high
As those stars once in the sky
Had a dream that 10,000 drug-dealing rebels were charging across the field toward my house about to slaughter my entire family. I wasn’t even smart enough to get in my car and drive away and my dad was halfway between them and the house running down the road. Maybe I was waiting for him to make sure he was okay. I think my cousin was the first to die, because he was part of the drug deal and there were a few semi-trucks. I don’t know how 10,000 rebels fit in 3 semi’s but they kept coming out of the woodwork. A lot of other weird and crazy stuff happened but I forgot it all. Always seems to be the case.
I seriously don’t know how guys grow their hair out so long. Like when does it get to that point. I just want to get it to the longest I’ve ever had it.
It doesn’t matter your size or your age
It doesn’t matter your job or your wage
Monday, June 22, 2009
early on in the month of June possibly even May, I typed this up but never posted it
Alright this is from like a month ago but I wanted to get it posted. My bad. I’m really going to try harder to blog at least every other day.
I want to be the guy in magazines, the guy in the suit, with the office job. The 1000 dollar razor having, top of the line cologne wearing, best grooming products available to look his best guy.
“No one can touch me with work ethic.” Will Smith
“I will not be outworked. Period.” “You might have more talent than me, you might be smarter than me, you might be sexier than me, you might be all of those things. You got it on me in nine categories. But if we get on the treadmill together, there’s two things” You’re getting off first, or I’m gonna die. It’s really that simple.” Will Smith
I really need to push myself more.
I really need to get red-wine vinegar it’s in everything!!!
Update
Bought a new car a red 2009 Cobalt.
Bought a 300lb Olympic weight set and a bench, but haven’t put it together yet. Then I bought a curl bar separately too.
Had a really freaky dream last nigh, in which, I invented like five games, they were really weird, but at the time seemed really fun for on the fly made up games. Not very practical that everyone has a bat and I’m sure you could design something better than just a regular baseball bat. Three poles set up and you have to hit a ball into one. Okay, honestly it’s one more complicated and harder to explain. I’m mad at myself for forgetting the rest of them.
I want some pomegranate seeds to sprinkle on my chicken or a salad.
Pitts won last night. Now they are 2-1 in the series. (They won the next series after this too for the Championship)
Obviously, I wrote this blog a long time ago, then when I’m posting it right now.
Attitude it’s not “it is what it is” it’s what you make of it.
It sucks all the T.V. seasons are over even though I still have a bunch to catch up on. I’ve watched all my favorite ones though.
I think I’ve been lifting for a little over a month now. Haven’t seen any progress but I’ll keep at it. Maybe my stomach is a little flatter, or maybe I just haven’t ate yet today.
So I had this lump I thought was cancer or who knows what.
Doctor said it was a cyst or a hair infection thing called folicitius or something. It hurt like hell, let me tell you, especially when it swelled up. I guess you can get it all over your body, but I got it in a really bad spot. It’s gone down with the medication, so at least I won’t have to get surgery. I was really scared and worried though not to mention in pain. Not knowing what something is makes me worried, but I dread actually finding out because I’m afraid it might be something really serious.
So, a week ago the garbage can at work in the bathroom was moved and it still freaks me out when I go to throw something away in it’s normal spot.
I made some chimichurri sauce but didn’t have red wine vinegar so I used white and that in itself ruined it I think. Bummer. I hate not having the right ingredients.
You can me sad and mope around or you can move on in life.
I want to be the guy in magazines, the guy in the suit, with the office job. The 1000 dollar razor having, top of the line cologne wearing, best grooming products available to look his best guy.
“No one can touch me with work ethic.” Will Smith
“I will not be outworked. Period.” “You might have more talent than me, you might be smarter than me, you might be sexier than me, you might be all of those things. You got it on me in nine categories. But if we get on the treadmill together, there’s two things” You’re getting off first, or I’m gonna die. It’s really that simple.” Will Smith
I really need to push myself more.
I really need to get red-wine vinegar it’s in everything!!!
Update
Bought a new car a red 2009 Cobalt.
Bought a 300lb Olympic weight set and a bench, but haven’t put it together yet. Then I bought a curl bar separately too.
Had a really freaky dream last nigh, in which, I invented like five games, they were really weird, but at the time seemed really fun for on the fly made up games. Not very practical that everyone has a bat and I’m sure you could design something better than just a regular baseball bat. Three poles set up and you have to hit a ball into one. Okay, honestly it’s one more complicated and harder to explain. I’m mad at myself for forgetting the rest of them.
I want some pomegranate seeds to sprinkle on my chicken or a salad.
Pitts won last night. Now they are 2-1 in the series. (They won the next series after this too for the Championship)
Obviously, I wrote this blog a long time ago, then when I’m posting it right now.
Attitude it’s not “it is what it is” it’s what you make of it.
It sucks all the T.V. seasons are over even though I still have a bunch to catch up on. I’ve watched all my favorite ones though.
I think I’ve been lifting for a little over a month now. Haven’t seen any progress but I’ll keep at it. Maybe my stomach is a little flatter, or maybe I just haven’t ate yet today.
So I had this lump I thought was cancer or who knows what.
Doctor said it was a cyst or a hair infection thing called folicitius or something. It hurt like hell, let me tell you, especially when it swelled up. I guess you can get it all over your body, but I got it in a really bad spot. It’s gone down with the medication, so at least I won’t have to get surgery. I was really scared and worried though not to mention in pain. Not knowing what something is makes me worried, but I dread actually finding out because I’m afraid it might be something really serious.
So, a week ago the garbage can at work in the bathroom was moved and it still freaks me out when I go to throw something away in it’s normal spot.
I made some chimichurri sauce but didn’t have red wine vinegar so I used white and that in itself ruined it I think. Bummer. I hate not having the right ingredients.
You can me sad and mope around or you can move on in life.
Monday, June 15, 2009
hmm
I thought today was going to start off bad. Sleep had eluded me most of the night, so I didn’t awake refreshed. The morning routine went according to plan and I killed some time by reading some articles on the internet. North Korea was claiming nuclear power. The Lakers won the championship and Will Smith was the number three highest paid actor.
I couldn’t find any clean pants to wear for the baseball game I was going to straight after work. Wearing my work pants or shorts were my only options. I figured it would be a cold night though. All of my hooded sweatshirts were dirty too. Rats! Anyways, I grabbed a mountain dew out the fridge along with a water. Carried them and my duffle bag filled with necessities to my car. Setting the Mountain Dew can, my jolt of energy in the morning, on the roof of my car.Threw my duffle bag in and placed the water bottle into a coaster thingy and jumped in. Totally forgetting the soda can. I back up and then pull out of my driveway. I travel about a hundred yards before looking for my drink. No where to be found. I’m like great it must have fallen off. If I turn around it might make me late to work and by late I mean ten minutes early instead of the normal 15. I stop the car and check to see if the can is still there and it is. What a miracle. Maybe the day won’t be so bad after all.
It’s college all over again. Everyone I know is getting married or becoming engaged. God for ya’ll.
All they do is stand around and talk, while I do all the work.
Indians vs the Brewers. This is going to be the start of an Indians come back. Going to sweep the Brew Crew and climb the standings. Sadly, this is the least I’ve paid attention to baseball since I started following the sport. I’m not even in a fantasy baseball league this year.
Tonight Cleveland game, tomorrow night Mentor for some CPR training. I’m going to be tired.
I hate beggars.
Drove to Cleveland for the first time in my life. I’m finally doing things people were doing when they were 16,17, or 18 years old. I was a nervous wreck, but I made it. Went to the Indians game. We lost, but it was an extremely high scoring game, a lot of homeruns. The game lasted forever, I didn’t get home until close to 2am. I’m beat. There were 20 minutes of fireworks after the game.
Was starving, the next game was dollar hot dog night too. Wish I would have went to that game instead. I did get a Rick Vaughn bobble head though, for the 20th anniversary of the movie Major League.
I need a new wallet. Should I become an EMT?
When can I get that application?
Penguins won in Hockey. I’m pretty pumped. They are a young team. Their four best players are 20,21,22, and 23 years old. Going to dominate for years to come.
I need to find a way to make time seem like it’s going by faster.
I couldn’t find any clean pants to wear for the baseball game I was going to straight after work. Wearing my work pants or shorts were my only options. I figured it would be a cold night though. All of my hooded sweatshirts were dirty too. Rats! Anyways, I grabbed a mountain dew out the fridge along with a water. Carried them and my duffle bag filled with necessities to my car. Setting the Mountain Dew can, my jolt of energy in the morning, on the roof of my car.Threw my duffle bag in and placed the water bottle into a coaster thingy and jumped in. Totally forgetting the soda can. I back up and then pull out of my driveway. I travel about a hundred yards before looking for my drink. No where to be found. I’m like great it must have fallen off. If I turn around it might make me late to work and by late I mean ten minutes early instead of the normal 15. I stop the car and check to see if the can is still there and it is. What a miracle. Maybe the day won’t be so bad after all.
It’s college all over again. Everyone I know is getting married or becoming engaged. God for ya’ll.
All they do is stand around and talk, while I do all the work.
Indians vs the Brewers. This is going to be the start of an Indians come back. Going to sweep the Brew Crew and climb the standings. Sadly, this is the least I’ve paid attention to baseball since I started following the sport. I’m not even in a fantasy baseball league this year.
Tonight Cleveland game, tomorrow night Mentor for some CPR training. I’m going to be tired.
I hate beggars.
Drove to Cleveland for the first time in my life. I’m finally doing things people were doing when they were 16,17, or 18 years old. I was a nervous wreck, but I made it. Went to the Indians game. We lost, but it was an extremely high scoring game, a lot of homeruns. The game lasted forever, I didn’t get home until close to 2am. I’m beat. There were 20 minutes of fireworks after the game.
Was starving, the next game was dollar hot dog night too. Wish I would have went to that game instead. I did get a Rick Vaughn bobble head though, for the 20th anniversary of the movie Major League.
I need a new wallet. Should I become an EMT?
When can I get that application?
Penguins won in Hockey. I’m pretty pumped. They are a young team. Their four best players are 20,21,22, and 23 years old. Going to dominate for years to come.
I need to find a way to make time seem like it’s going by faster.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
just some songs
Can't stop listening to these songs:
I'm still standing, Elton John
You could never know what it's like
Your blood like winter freezes just like ice
And there's a cold lonely light that shines from you
You'll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use
And did you think this fool could never win
Well look at me, I'm coming back again
I got a taste of love in a simple way
And if you need to know while I'm still standing you just fade away
Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
Once I never could hope to win
You starting down the road leaving me again
The threats you made were meant to cut me down
And if our love was just a circus you'd be a clown by now
I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues
I'm still standing, Elton John
You could never know what it's like
Your blood like winter freezes just like ice
And there's a cold lonely light that shines from you
You'll wind up like the wreck you hide behind that mask you use
And did you think this fool could never win
Well look at me, I'm coming back again
I got a taste of love in a simple way
And if you need to know while I'm still standing you just fade away
Don't you know I'm still standing better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor, feeling like a little kid
I'm still standing after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
I'm still standing yeah yeah yeah
Once I never could hope to win
You starting down the road leaving me again
The threats you made were meant to cut me down
And if our love was just a circus you'd be a clown by now
I Guess That's Why They Call It The Blues
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